I have had 3 abortions when I was young and I have been in a downward spirial for about 10 yrs, physical and mental.  I had to have a hysterectomy 2 yrs ago and I can't seem to get over what was wrong... andemetrosis and endemetrosis.  Dr. told me I had scar tissue, I can't have children, I am so sad.  I did the bible studies on abortion, I can't keep a job, car, or anything.  I still feel that I am unworthy of anything.  married to a man that shows no emotion or talks about anything other than sports, doesn't seem to care that I have to have things changing around me.  furniture, job, car, if i could move then that would be one of them, I haven't been really happy for a long time, I can't even remember if I have ever been happy. 

Am I alone or does someone else feel this way?  Is there something else wrong with me?  Just wondering...  Thank you for listening.

I hope that you still will get the response to this.

You are not crazy! let me first say that... How else are we too act "normal' when we are dealing with the loss of our unborn children?

I too suffer with Endometriosis and have had a total hysterectomy. My abortion was my only pregnancy.
I am a step mom now ( part time mother) and it has brought all those memories back to the surface and made me even more angry about the "Choice" I was forced into 18 years ago.

Please email me and we can chat if you would like.