where do i start. im 17 years old, and at the time i got pregnant i was 16 years old. i had my abortion on nov 13, 2009. i had everything, the loving boyfriend and all. we were together for 2 1/2 years.. he was my first love and everything. when i told him he was jus as shocked as i was,, and thats when my life started to fall apart. my mom found out and of course she was mad but she got over it. then he finally got the guts to tell his mom and her reaction was unbeliveable. she didnt want me to have his child and she took it upon herself to make him think that it wasnt his baby. i thought to myself all the stuff im goin thru now, how much more can i take. I didnt want to lose him at all, so i decided to go thru with it. lord knows i didnt want to do it, i just dont know what happend on my way there.. it felt like i was in a zone. After the procedure all i did was cry, i cried til i fell asleep every night, and i still do until this day. I lost my boyfriend, and now he has another kid on the way that he's keeping.! i just dont know how to deal with it, all kinds of thoughts go thru my head at night. i jus wish i could rewind back into time and jus start all over. This still feels like a dream to me.. i need help.!

I am in prayer for you. Your situation is hard. You made a mistake that I too made. It is an excruciating pain that we will carry forever to know that we will never hold our baby on Earth, and that we sinned against our God. But there is hope. Rest assured that the Lord is SOVEREIGN, meaning He is in control of all things and will be faithful to you if you accept Him. If your ex is still out there having premarital sex, be thankful he isn't with you because he was not pointing you to Christ, but to sin. It takes two believe me I know. My child's father is a preacher, and it hurts everyday that he is now with someone else and that I am nothing to him. But ultimately, I am thankful because we weren't right for one another. We sinned against each other, and against God. So I have to believe that God in His sovereignty has someone out there for me, and for you, who will love us the RIGHT way....and that we will NEVER be in this situation again. Praying for you. I know how hard it is. I miss my fiance everyday, but I know that my sin has consequences and this suffering of mine is no exception. We must endure. Time will help. Time doesn't erase. But it helps.