My name is Heather. I am a freshman in college and I got pregnant my first semester here. It was a one night stand after a fun night (sober) and it has changed my life for eternity. I feel as if something is missing in my life.
I knew it was a girl because my mother, grandmother, great grandmother, and great great grandmother had girls first, on both sides of my family. I named my daughter Autumn. I never got to see her on an ultrasound until I was about to have the ab. She is the motivation behind everything I do. I met my current boyfriend when I was about 6 weeks pregnant, and he has been there by my side through this whole journey. It was not his baby, but he was there for me through it all.
Everyday I miss my baby, and wish I had made a different decision. Although I know that someday I will have children it is hard to realize what I've done. Somedays I don't talk to anyone but my boyfriend, it is hard because I carried her for 3 months and now she is in a better place. It's hard to grieve for my loss when I don't know where to begin. I miss her everyday of my life, and I feel there is an empty part in my heart for her.
Is there anyone who can help me get over this feeling of emptiness?

Dear Heather,
Thank you for the honor of sharing your story and your heart with us. My heart is grieving with you. There is hope and there is help after such a devastating experience. If you haven't already, open your heart to Jesus and give Him the pain you are feeling. He is always waiting for each of us to come to Him for forgiveness and restoration of our hearts and lives. He is the only One that can fill the empty void in our heart, especially after abortion. In Him, we are free to grieve our loss and free to forgive ourselves, as we receive His forgiveness. The healing process is not easy, of course. Healing will come layer by layer, as we meditate on God's Word. His Word is the only thing that has power to heal such a deep wound. I understand what you are going through, I have been there too. I am proud of you for facing the pain so soon after it happened. I was in denial, like many others, for 15 years or so after my abortion. You have already taken a huge step toward the healing of your heart and mind. Look at our "resource page" for post abortion support groups. Hooking up with one will definitely be worth your time. You are so loved and appreciated.
Jesus loves you and I do too,
Nona

Likewise i just know my baby was a little girl for many reasons similar to yours. My name begins with an L and the fathers names begins with an L also. That together with a name i've always liked i named my baby girl Leoni. I miss her like crazy everyday.

I was 3 months, 2 weeks and 3 days when i had my abortion. I know how you feel. I didn't see my baby until the day before the abortion. It broke my heart because i knew it was a boy, not only that but my baby's due date was the same as my fiancee's birthday. There is not one day that passes by that i don't think of him. Not one day that i don't see his face. Not one day that i wonder if i made the right choice. I don't think this is something we can ever get over, but i do believe we can get thru it. I don't have all the answers to all the questions that we, who have gone thru it are asking, but i wish i did. All i can say is that the only thing that helps me is praying! I don't know where i would be if i didn't have GOD by my side. It does get easier with in time. Just know that you ARE FORGIVEN. Keep her memory alive, and the emptiness you feel in your heart, I pray is filled by the love you have for her! Just because we made the decision that we did, DOES NOT mean we didn't love our baby. My prayers and love are with you my dear sister. I love you and GOD LOVES YOU