I am new to this website. I can't even bring myself to answer the questions. I don't want to remember everything. I don't know what will happen to me mentally if I really think about it. It has been 22 years, I haven been on depression medicine for 10 years and 2 times have been diagnosed as bipolar. I can't give them a reason for my saddness but I believe it is the abortion. God has been dealing with me about this but I just can't talk about it. i just pretend it did not happen but that is not working. I'm tired and disgusted.

I had an abortion and was in denial about my emotions for the first month. The only thing i can suggest is to TALK to GOD. I understand not wanting to talk about it and just pushing it away, but maybe talking to HIM will make you feel better. Emotionally it is something i believe you never get over, but that doesn't mean you can't get THRU it! Maybe talking is too hard, try writting a letter, to yourself and just read it outloud when you feel like your ready to deal with it, and if you read it and it gets to hard, put it away. The thing about a letter is that you can always fold it and put away until you are ready to read it. Even tho you haven't fully dealt with your emotions, they are there and valid. Take small steps don't force anything and know that GOD is there to catch you if you feel like your about to fall. I hope this helped, I will be praying for you, you are not alone so just be strong and if you cant, let GOD be strong for YOU

Ask the Lord for forgiveness and know that He is true and just and will do what He says He will do and that is cast that sin into a sea of forgetfulness. WE are the ones who find it hard to forgive ourselves and each other through the pain of abortion. Try to pray that the Lord helps you to receive His forgiveness in its fullest. We are human and He knows that. He knows that we are going to make mistakes before we even make them. And for the baby---know that he or she is with the Lord and being cared for until you reunite with he or she. Reuniting is possibly if you give your life to God and follow Him. Healing is only possible through Him. He loves us just like we love our children and if your child made this mistake would you not forgive them instantly and completely even though you know what they did was wrong? The Father loves us more perfectly than we could ever love in our human forms so He is able to understand and forgive more perfectly than we can even comprehend. Know this. Meditate on this day and night. When the enemy tries to throw your sin back into your face tell him to get behind you and then move forward into the Light of a new understanding of where the Lord wants to lead you. Sin is sin and He knows we are going to fall. But He walks with us ready to pick us back up on our feet as soon as we do. Just like a parent follows a small child who is learning to walk, they know that there will be falls while they are learning. They know they have to let them fall in order to walk well. The Lord is allowing us to learn to walk in the ways He knows we can, but all the while also knows there will be falls along the way. He wil pick you up and dust you off and still love you as you continue learning how to walk straight. I am so sorry that you have had to go through this. I pray for your healing and for you to feel the presence of the Lord in your life and allow His peace to fill your heart as you deal with this loss.